Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Emracing the process

Once again I find myself starting a process. Yahweh is truly a God of process...the journey. At this moment I am learning to be content but not complacent. Wow. Our Adamic nature has made this a fine line yet in the spiritual there's a gaping hole in between. So let's be honest for a moment, I don't know how to do this!! I either find myself running full force and longing so much for the next dimension that I'm not content with the word Yahweh has given me for this season OR I find myself not really pressing in but just "being", becoming oblivious to the word for today. Can I get an "amen!" or "I've totally been there!"? What made me think of this is the Shane and Shane song "I Miss You". While listening I thought, "are they talking to a woman or to Yahweh?". I genuinely miss Him at this moment. Even though I know He is at my side or dwelling within me, however you choose to see it, I feel like He is slightly out of reach for this mind that is divided by Babylon and Kingdom. To reach the "Godhead dwelling" dimension my mind can no longer be divided. This spirit, mind, and body must be completely kingdom. Today I speak to mind: Quiet yourself! Spirit: Rise up! Body: Line up!!
I declare that I will be content with where I am in this season but will continue to yearn after Yahweh with a fiery passion! Yes I said it: PASSION!! Complacency will no longer have a hold on me!

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Fasting: Winning and Losing

Well it seems this is a battle I thought I had won before the fighting even began. I was just so sure that I would not have any problems with this word and would walk it out perfectly to a T. Once again I find myself stunned and proven wrong. I started yesterday and have already failed miserably. I had an apple and a peach in the morning and then decided not to eat again. 8:00 pm hits and I'm dizzy, nauseous, and have a headache. My remedy? Double cheeseburger, fries, and fried pickles. Yum! and Fail! Tuesday I decide is a new day. So with a fresh start I make it to 2:00. I scarf a sandwich. Needless to say, I've given up on today. Wow Sara, really? It is just food! Ridiculous. What I will say is this, we serve a gracious God that is understanding and rooting for us even after we fail. Therefore, tomorrow is a new day. I have decided to take this one day at a time with a short term goal to start out. If one decides to be a runner, he cannot run 15 miles the first time. He has to work his way up to that. This is the same with fasting. Tomorrow I will fast the whole day and then eat on Thursday. I believe if I have an end goal I can make it through the day. I declare a refreshing in the morning and a drive to please my Father whole heartedly. I also declare that I will hear what Yahweh has for me tomorrow, especially in reguards to Grandpa Ken. Praise You, Yahweh for being a faithful Father! I choose to be found faithful in Your eyes!

Monday, June 21, 2010

Grandpa Ken

"Ken Loehman passed away last night." Hearing these words was something I honestly thought I would not hear for at least 40 more years. I was proven wrong when Zack called me five minutes ago and told me. Wow. That seems to be all I can say at the moment. Don't get me wrong there are thousands of questions going through my head and a definite urgency to intercede for the family but overall I am in shock. All that is coming to me is this: Ken's spirit man was being built up so much that his earthly man could not handle it. His body just was not capable of housing the mighty man he was always intended to be.
Now, after typing that I do realize that that could just be speculation or an excuse for what we thought Yahweh's word was for this situation. But what I do know is that there is a very fervent people here that are ready to press in to Yahweh full force to hear what happened and gain wisdom on how to proceed. I do know that Yahweh asking me to fast was obviously very purposed for this exact time. I speak peace to the Kiehn family and ask for wisdom to be given to the presbytery.

Ken Loehman, you will be missed on this earth but I am so stoked you're dancing with Yahweh and Yeshua in heavenly places.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Balancing my checkbook

So, first off, is checkbook one or two words? oh well.
As of last week I started using the documentation booklet that comes with your checkbook. As of today, I balanced it. Can I just say, what an eye opener?!! The way that I started when I first received my checks was to write a check and/or use my debit card and ALWAYS write it down. Then as time went on I started relying on my online account. For some reason this logic was just proven to me to be faulty. The reason I say that is because the numbers just started adding up, (pun intended). My online account will show how much money is in there before an actual transaction goes through. What I realized though is that sometimes checks don't go through until later and then BAM!! you have an overdraft for a check you totally forgot about!
So...I decided to relate this somewhat to my spiritual journey. If I fully rely on old revelation to get me through things, when the hard stuff, the current season that needs new revelation, comes BAM!! I get an "overdraft" per say because I haven't mined out the word for that season. I then find myself searching frantically for a word to fit in that season so I won't be in the red. NO NO NO!! This is completely out of order and not the way Yahweh has set things up!! Just like my checkbook, I must always be in the rest yet in right order yielding to Yahweh and hearing/listening (two very different things) for what His word is for every season. In conclusion, today is marked. I have drawn the line in the sand and have made a choice to line up with Yahweh's perfect order. I will continue keeping up with my finances so as to be a faithful son/steward over the things I have been entrusted with AND I will be found faithful to mine out Yahweh's word for every season, even if that entails worshiping Him for who is.

Love ya. Bless ya. Bye. ;)

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Sherlock Holmes

This was one of the coolest movies i have ever seen. I will admit, when this first came out, i wanted to see it. Then i saw a small glimse and hated it. Needless to say, I was making blanketed statements based on a very small analysis. SO I am here to say that I stand corrected!!! Did you know Guy Richie produced this?? That right there makes me love this movie even more. Not to mention the effects and slow motion. OH MY GOSH. I'm floored and so ready to see this again...hopefully with my manpanion when he returns. :))

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Welp, here goes.

Pretty sure i just did this because i'm bored. ha Which means there might not be too much to catch up on. BUT, possibly as time goes on, I might start posting things with meaning. Until then, here are my random thoughts and processes that I am going through. I hope you thoroughly enjoy. :)